3 to go
So, yeah, I’ve decided not to aim for 140 pounds anymore. I’m already very thin, in my opinion and I’m content with my body. I’m afraid if I lose 8 more pounds, that I’ll look TOO thin. I don’t want to look gaunt by any means. I’m starting to see my hip bones protruding, so I think this is the end of the line for me. My very tiny friend even told me I could stand to gain if I wanted to, so that says something to me. So, I’ll lose 3 more pounds and leave it at that. I’ll just focus on mainly toning and fitting in cardio every other day to prevent losing weight. But I want to try to maintain at 145. If I gain/lose 2 pounds, then I’ll lose/gain 2 pounds later. So to those of you who have been here throughout most of my journey, thank you! The support was much appreciated. I’m by no means going anywhere, so I’m here for you guys as well. I’ll make sure to post a final progress picture sometime next month, more than likely. Get in a bit of that toning I was speaking of before posting a final product. :)
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So in physics today we broke off into groups to do a lab that required a person to run. We would record the runner’s times & body weight. My group chose me to run since I’m “skinny” and, consequently, wouldn’t be ashamed of my weight. *BLANK FACE* Um…I’m skinny? I was confused because I don’t view myself any smaller than the other girls in the group. But apparently I stood out as the thin one to them. I was just in the restroom earlier and was disgusted by how big I was. I’ve gained near ten pounds from bloat from who knows where and ten minutes later…this. Body dysmorphia, anyone? Omg. Lol And to think in trying to lose weight. Long story short, they were shocked by my weight and weren’t expecting it. Turns out I’m the heaviest…but still the thinnest…according to everyone other than myself. Am I still in fat girl mode? I don’t see it. I’m not skinny. Nowhere near.
